I fail at life, sry.
It's been what, four days now?
xD I'm such a dork.

I'm working on an entry for a writing contest that I have to mail in tomorrow, though. : / I'm really worried it sucks though.
So I'm willing my tough-critic friend to sign on so I can have her read it over.
and tell me JUST how much it actually sucks.
Wish me luck! (:

QUOTE OF THE DAY: "I've been trying for some time to develop a lifestyle that doesn't require my presence." - Garry Trudeau

Sorry about that. I'm going to try to update (almost) everyday even if it's just a sentence saying, "I'm alive."

Anyway, this is a post simply saying that chapter 11 of Bubble Wrap is FINALLY up. (yayy!)

And, the spotlight song for today is You Found Me by the Fray.

Seriously, it's so emotional and it makes me sob on the inside.

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late.
You found me, you found me.

Oh, I'm also working on an excerpt from a story I'm keeping under wraps. I'm submitting it to a writing contest. I'm really excited, because there's a money prize (I'm greedy) and a prize for a college-credit fiction writing course (I like to get ahead).
I should probably get working on that now, actually.

QUOTE: In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on. - Robert Frost

Yeah, that's right. It gives me a warm fuzzy feeling in my stomach whenever I realize that hey, someone cared enough to make a video for SOL. (:

Linkage: http://youtube.com/watch?v=xcVqcT8sbh4

Made by the ever amazing lalalandgirl101 (YouTube)/VampieSuli (Fictionpress). (:

They're not my personal cast (as you can see from my avatars), but I think they're just as good. It's also inspired me to finally make an opening for SOL, which I've been procrastinating for quite a while. I'm downloading clips for it as we speak.

I'm also going to finish compiling a playlist for MP and maybe post it sometime in the upcoming weeks. (It may include an album cover and back, along with a small informational on the songs, lyrics from those songs that especially fit the story, along with what the song matches up with [relationships, plot, etc].) (; Stay tuned.

And a small updated on DPSEBW: I'm on page three or four of chapter six, so I'm hoping to have it posted by Friday. Hopefully.

So, I decided to count how many ideas I have for stories, and here it is: 09.

I thought it'd be much more, but I was happy to find that it was actually under double digits. There's quite a few that I might plan now but write when I'm in college or past college because I think they're actually really good ideas. One would be verryy difficult to come up with a background on because it's slightly sci-fi so I wouldn't be able to just come up with a normal, simple romance. It's an extremely complicated story idea, and there's at least three different boys the main character has a relationship with, AND the main one (aka: my favorite) is very, very abusive. On both sides. It's a strange little story, haha.

Only two of those stories are really, really dramatic as well. I'm planning the outline for one of them considering I'm posting it on FP in July. The second is based on a one-shot (I know, I hate one-shots and I usually never do them) that I was originally planning on doing that was much more twisted and insane, but I decided to tone it down at least a little, and now the plot is completely different. I'm planning on posting it in fall '09. Both of these lack barely any comedy at all, though they both have romance, but obviously not the fluffy kind.

And then there's a lot of friendship ones (one involving four girls, another about a girl and four boys who manage to buy a huge apartment when they all end up going to the same college), and there's one romance that's really very, very light despite the strange circumstances, so really when you think it'd be a drama, it's actually just comedy and romance, nothing else. I've already started that one even though I'm not posting it until after the second SOL is done.

And I've always wanted to try my hand at screenwriting. Who knows, I'm feeling very creative lately. (;

Yeah, so, what's new?

Because the subject certainly isn't.

I posted the new chapter of Bubble Wrap, which I'm afraid I'm going to edit again because I see so many problems with it. (I edited it twice, both times being sleep-deprived as you can see in my AN). I'm going on vacation this Wednesday (which basically is the equivalent of camping, going to the beach, eating tons of junk food, and watching wayy too many movies at the theatre) with mi familia, and I won't be back until sometime before July 4. And that means no updates, though I might (keyword: might) be working on Bubble Wrap and random stories as well, though I won't have my computer so it will be in my trusty notebook.

And I hate transferring chapters from notebook to computer. Yuck.

Back to whatever: I read 'The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks' in about half a day, and though I read it so quickly, it was only to see if my OTP of the book would happen. Not only did it not, but the ending was abrupt and completely pointless. There wasn't even any excitement. It was a blah book, I have to say.

I also saw 'The Incredible Hulk' and 'Get Smart' yesterday. Both were better than I expected (the former wasn't completely stupid and the latter I thought was going to be utterly slapstick but was actually heartwarming, and Steve Carrell's character was intelligent, not a moron.) I still would have rather seen 'Iron Man', but meh.

And finally: It's a good thing I'm so obsessive about colleges now because it's seriously impossible for me to handle choosing the ones I really like. Seriously, so far I have about thirty on my list. Hence the Subject of this post. There's some that are actual choices (Carleton College; Brown University; California College of Arts; Pratt Institute) but the rest are gibberish that I'm picking just for no reason. I need to stop being so accepting. I'm picking colleges in states like Kentucky because I think they sound average, when really I know I'm not going to any college that's not in California, New York, Michigan, Minnesota, or a New England state.

And now I'm all "I'm going to buckle down this year and become totally amazing!" when I should be embracing summer.

And I'm getting all serious about writing.

But right now I'm only planning writing, not actually writing.

God, I should just go check myself into an asylum now.

I'm insane.

Utterly insane. Seriously, once I decide some sort of system, I get all OCD/anal about it. My whole college plan has had me religiously looking for colleges, when I should be basking and NOT thinking about school and the fact that college is a bazillion years away.

But the fact that it makes me happy is all that matters, right?

I'm thinking about just getting an English major from my sisters' college, since that sounds so much cooler than "Creative Writing".

And there's only ONE college that has both the majors of Creative Writing AND Baking/Pastry Arts. (I'm still confused about which major I want to do, because I'd be more comfortable having the latter as my major even though obviously I'd still attack making a living as a writer. [Whilst working at Target. I'm filled with dreams.])

I found this one college that was pretty spiffy, because the tuition is cheap as hell.

But then I realized it's kind of abnormally mega cheap, so now I'm thinking it's some sort of college for stupid people.

Omg, my college anxiety is starting three years early.

Did I mention I was insane?

LUCKILY, half of the Creative Writing colleges are out because I'm not going to a college with any kind of religion at all, ew. Four years at a Catholic high school when I'm freakin' atheist is good enough for me, kthnx.

So, my sister graduated this weekend, and she's totally set on me doing the whole "next generation" thing at her college, working at the post office like she did and all that crap.

And you know, originally I did want to go. But I looked at the majors and they don't have any of the majors that interest me. It's a liberal college, true, but I want to go to a liberal ARTS college. I've decided to make a top 20 list of colleges for this year, then next summer I'll narrow it down to 10, and then after that to 5 and then I'll apply to those 5.

Or whatever. I don't know how applying to college works, and I really don't wish to know. I cannot see myself in college. It'll just make me feel... old.

But that's me, terrified of the future. And death. Oh man, my worst fear is death.

Wow, this came a LOT quicker than I expected it would, but these avatars came out really well if I do say so myself. Like, amazingly, actually. (: I hope you feel the same way.

( all seven under the cut. (: )

So, yeah, here it is. I'm starting another livejournal. My other one is much more general with reviews for forms of entertainment (shows, books, etc.) and my crappy icons and the like. This one is more or less centered around my Fictionpress account, with info on my stories. (: My username is "Bovie", by the way, though you'll probably find this by that.

Of course, on occasion, you'll also catch a rant that would normally go on my other LJ, just to mix things up. I'm also going to be posting icons that have to do with my stories. Adobe photoshop is everyone's friend. (: And if I happen to get any better with Sony Vegas and find a sufficient amount of clips needed, I might try my hand on manipulating and attempt to make vids for my stories. It'll be quite a while until that happens, though.

Coming up: Character icons for Steps of Life: Manufactured Perfection. I'm feeling creative. :D